Hmm its been quite some time since i updated this certain blog of mine.I seriously i have to change the layout of the blog and erm the way it is,,soo boring without pictures! OMG!,i just realised that i have been blogging only when i am irritated.haha.And i think i can go fly kite because whenever i read the old posts of mine,i realised i can sound really lame la!haha.Blogs are hmmm..how do i put it?.,You can sound stupid,lame,a wannabe,or a person who is so full of herself/himself. How ironic can things be? HEH.I gotta admit it feels soo awkard not celebrating Diwali this year.I miss it in fact.It feels even more funny especially when your from a big family who have a blast every year on this occasion.Oh well.And i am actually blogging instead of doing all those last minute work i do every year or helping mum with the overnight cooking.Heck haha i'll take this as a new experience but its good in a way! I got projects to do,school work and blah blah.So at least i will have time to focus on school work. 1. What makes you want to live another 3. How do you feel about bringing the 4. Apart from your house and school, 5. Why are cats so petrified of water? 6. How do you think life would be 7. Do you sit down and eat dinner with 8. Have you ever seen a meteor shower? 9. What do think about the kids that 10. What's the most difficult question 11. Do you believe white lies are okay 12. How do you feel about thinspo? 13 . Have you wondered what the fish do 14 . Who do you consider your role 15. From where do you get the most 16 . Has a birthday wish ever come true 18. How do you feel about cremation? 19. At what age do you consider being 20. Do you ever want to go to Spain? 21 . Have you ever had an ingrown What color is your ideal house? 23. Do you shut the lights off when 24. Have you ever bought a CD for one 27. When was the last time you 3 . What was the last movie you saw? 4 . The last place you went? 5. Missing someone? 6. What made you smile today? 7. Are you scared to fall in love? 9. Ever thought you were in love? 10. What is your status right now? 1 1. Did you dream last night? 12. What were you doing this morning 13. What were you doing this morning at 15. Name a country you want to visit: 17. Do you have a tattoo? 18 . What was the last thing you ate? 19 . Last thing you drank? 20. Last text message received? 2 1 . Do you have a nick name? 22. Things you have to do everyday? 23. Are you a type of person who easily 24. The last thing you said to one of 27. Rate your day 1-10. 2 8. Did anything exciting happen 31. Type something that is on your 32. How many things in your past do you 33. Do you have a best friend? 34. What do you want to be when 38. Do you like your life? 40 . Has one of your friends ever 42 .Do you have more friends that are 43. How long have you had friendster? 44. Have you ever skipped school? 46. Last awkward moment? 47 . Who do you find yourself crushing 48. Have you ever fallen backwards 49 . Ever been to a friends house and 50. Ever found more than a dollar in a 51. Name someone close to you who 52. Name 3 things that everyone knows 53. When a friend walks out of your 54. Have you ever been corrected at 55. Has anyone ever been more 54. Do you still live at home? 55. Last time you smiled? why? 56 . What do you do when a 57.Would life be the same without 58. Would you go a month without 60. Do you think your current pets 61. When was your last bubble bath? 62. Do you know anyone by the name of 64. Where is your pet right now? 65. Name five things you did in the 66. Last time you consumed alcohol? 68 . How many kids do you have? 69. What outfit do you have on at 70. What color are your eyes? 71. Have you ever been in love? 72. When was the last time you drank 73. Did you do any chores today? 74. What are you doing tomorrow? 75. Do you know someone who likes 76. Have you ever had a friend named 77. Does a heartbreak feel as bad as 78 . What color is your hair? 79 . Do you think any of your exs 80 . Have you ever said I Love You and 81. Do you have a boyfriend / 82. What is the closest green object 84. Do you still have feelings for 85. Do you believe in ghosts? 86. Have you eaten popcorn in the What is your biggest dream? What 's your worst fear? What do you think of when you are Does blood scare you/make you sick? Do you remember when you lost your What is the worst trait a person can Do you know who you are? Do you hide who you really are? Would you die for another person Do you cry when a disaster happens in If you could go back and change one Do you ever lie to make someone If you could cure one disease what What do you hate most about your self? What do you love most about your Do you contemplate life after death? How do you think your karma is doing? If you could live a different life, Do you believe that dreams or Do you think human life is too short? Do you believe that herbal medicines Can music really heal you? Who are you most afraid of and why? When are you most happy? Some things can never change i suppose.Life's full of surprises,like totally especially when all of a sudden ,every single old flame of yours comes back to you or rather try to hit on you etc.And i mean every single one. Hilarious? weird? silly? or ridiculous? Haha.I really dont know.Especially when there's just too many things to handle at one go.I have been out every single day after school.And i got a terrible headache that i had to cancel today's outing.Haiyo i cant wait tml to be over then its the weekends..Yeah! Today was a beautiful day with a beautiful meaning,and i met someone who have 'us' in her heart.HAHAHA omg! so fucking funny la.Okay that lame incident is sooo lame that i dont wish to be lame to blogging it out.LOL.Met so many people whom i havent seen for a long time but it was really nice indeed! My long weekend will be soon gone,i'll be stoning at 'chicky's' place all the way tml and it will be new whole week again.OMG.Sad thing is that i never was overnite in the temple for even a single day.Wahlau.I missed out so much haha.And tml is firewalking at 3 plus,4 in the morning, and i cant go for that also.I also cant go for the particular event in the temple whereby the person will lose his life and gain it back for the firewalking ceremony which is done every year.I wanna go shoot the process of the priest or whoever is the person who would be losing his life and getting it back by the prayers.Slack la,but the temple will be packed like no body's business.I saw two men falling into the firepit last year in front of my eyes and i was recording the whole event.Like omg All over the world,i love to see my indian gals! ;) Ohmygod..time really flies! Its almost two weeks since school started.And soon the exams will come and the semester will end and soon i will go off to year 2 and soon to year 3 and soon off to further studies and soon to work or start something new and soon fall in love and get married and soon have kids and those kids grow up and become teenagers and soon they will fall in love and soon they will get married and soon they will have kids and soon i will become a grandmother and soon if time permits i will become a great grandmother and soon i will be off to the grave..wahh so fast ah haha.Okay enough of crap..you never know what will happen anytime.Hence its best you always expect for the worst..so nothing can shake you off.This semester has been much much better,,productive in fact ..okay maybe not..due to going out almost everyday and returning late, SPENDING money and burning the midnight oil to finish my tutorials which i would never bother doing last sem.But its all cool.I guess i will just catch up on my sleep during the holidays..so much for staying far from school.Aiyo..what the hell am i talking haha..this is Singapore..i think i better consider myself lucky.Atleast i am not in some foreign country where it is so big and it wil take a few hours to reach your destination.Never look at what you dont have and grumble..Look at what you have and be appreciative of that and never compare yourself with others coz they are never you nor will they ever know what are you exactly internally since everything is judged from the exterior. And today,,when i was travelling back home from school.i saw a special child,and my mind travelled back to the memories i had when i attended a camp for kids who had celebral parsley(i forgot how to spell the exact term of this).I have always hated camps,but this was truly a special camp which touched my heart in many ways.We often look at the surface in alot of situations but these kids actually made me look at things much deeper,not that i dont though.Being with those kids for a few days,,24/7 with them was really one of a kind.They can really say things or behave in such a way that you would be just having tears in your eyes.Their innocence in their eyes,their mere behaviour of making you their world etc.Sometimes we are just too bombarded with too many good things in life that we oversee the little things that actually makes your life more meaningful and of coz more beautiful.Oh well,and btw i seriously hate Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie.They are just mere spoilt brats who have no values in life.In fact,they are just enjoying life now becoz of their previous karma,OMG,,they are just so annoying,,and its not even funny..such people actually annoy me to the max. Alrite a lil update about school!,,i have a feeling this sem is gonna turn out all good!.Definitely it has been going better than sem 1.I have got multi-racial lecturers and they are good! funny! and fun!.The work and all is back and this time im gonna do it all,,no slacking or so ever.Full focus this sem and from now on basically. okay,im like so stressed now,i cleared my cupboard today and threw out like sooo many old clothes,,and suddenly i feel like i am desperately in need to go shopping!
I wonder what the heck is wrong.I have been getting some real weird mood swings often which is actually very rare.My world goes dark or rather totally black when i get up from either lying down or sitting down.I get irritated so fast these days,MAYBE i gotta get my blood pessure checked again.It was relatively high earlier this year.And i hope it still isnt as high as it was.And i am annoyed that nothing seems to be going right for now.Weight loss is my biggest issue now.I have hit a plateau!.HAIYO..how annoying can this be. Name 11 people you can think HOW DID YOU MEET #4? WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #2 AND # 6 WERE HOW OLD IS #8 ? WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #5 CONFESSED THEY WHOS #10'S BEST FRIEND? HAVE YOU EVER EATEN AROUND #1? DO YOU MISS #5? WHO IS #11 DATING? WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #3? WHAT DO YOU THINK OF #9? W HAT WOULD U DO IF #4 AND #7 WERE WH O DOES #2 LIKE? WOULD YOU MARRY #8? DO YOU LOVE #7? Before the marriage; He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to S he: Do you want me to leave? He: NO! Don't even think about it. She: Do you love me? He: Of course! She: Have you ever cheated on me? He: NO! Why you even asking? She: Will you kiss me? He: Yes! She: Will you hit me? He: No way! I'm not such kind of She: Can I trust you? He: Yes. She: Hubby Now after the marriage you can read it Hoi!Hoi!, PS:Sunny,i still cant believe you read my blog!! hahaha And so,something opened my eyes today,or rather someone's words.I really dont know what to say,but i guess i am just lucky.Yesterday i was like so fucking pissed,but somehow i felt asleep and i actually woke up hyper! Funny ,how the hormones react in a person.Well whatever it is,i'll work out a solution soon to it.Had a nice day after very long,something meaningful.I am still very shocked about something though.Just more and more thoughts run wild in my mind.Scary how things can turn out to be.Like wow,seriously. Dil badal baneee To phir aaoooo aa bhi jaao (7x) Gum leja tere To phir aaoooo aa bhi jaao (7x) oh ho ho abb to is manzar se To phir aaoooo aa bhi jaao (7x) I was fucking pissed.And i dont know why till i cant even sleep though i am very tired.I just feel so annoyed,frustrated,ready to snap at anyone feeling now.I am definitely not myself for the past i dont know how many months,if not mistaken even before school started in APRIL.or rather when school started.YEA,i miss my secondary school life like nobody's fucking business and all my old friends.They were the best.Since this is my blog,i shall blog out whatever i feel,instead of thinking who might read it and who wouldnt.It has never been my thing to live for others in this sense,i mean. I MISS SCHOOL!!!!! Running is just sooooo nice,cool,wonderful,addictive and the list goes on.I cant believe i am blogging about running.I used to despise running to the max.I recall my secondary school days,EVERY PE lesson..we had to run 2.4km under the hot sun and if we didnt make it into the timing we were given,my PE teacher,Mr Ben,made us come back after school to run at 2pm..also under the hot sun.I hated him to the max at that time because he barks at you to run faster and that was really annoying to the max.It was like some boot camp.I still remember that he loves to pick on me and shazana though they were so many others who run slower than us.He often claimed we werent doing our best and demanded that we run after school again.We got that punishment several times and we ran a longer route than 2.4km.However we all were fit since we were running often.Thanks to him for that and silly me i didnt realise he was doing it for our own good.Ok I gotta admit i was just mere lazy.But then again..how many people actually love to run? All those running stopped in the middle of the year 2004.There were many people getting injured by running outside and around our school and there were rumours that the place wasnt 'clean'.We were all glad,however they found another route in school within a short while and there we go,back to running again.However my sec 3 PE teacher ,Mr Ali..the cute cute one haha wasnt that demanding.Then came 2005 when i was sec 4,my PE teacher didnt even bother if we attend PE or not because we were graduating students and we made excuses like we would be too tired to concentrate in class and so on.And he believed us! haha.And from then onwards,my stamina dropped tremendously.No physical training like before.Little did i know,that will be the 'bomb' period aka the weight gaining period.:| LOL.Anyway back to running again, Running is the best way to lose off fats.Its been the best for me,so far.You sweat our toxins,your skin becomes clearer,you feel much better and you look much better.Overall your body is gonna love you if you start running.Its also a good way to lose off facial fats,for those who wanna have their cheekbones out like those supermodels you see.Its all about simple discipline.I recently started running and i am so hooked to it! To shape up,tone,build or to lose fats, having the proper diet is also very important! Ohmygod! Henna is so IT-savy! and that is excellent! Our email adds, Myself(Puvanes Neshrin):exquisite_desire@hotmail.com Divorce : Future tense of marriage . wow! one week since i touched diaryland.haha There are four more days to results.I hav no idea what to expect,but i guess i will be prepared for the worst,which would be retaking all the four modules.The ones which were examinable.Its too late to regret anything now.I should have just studied properly n blah..but i am not regret anything now.No point crying over spilt milk. I have just nothing to say but just sit and wait.I am sure it is gonna be very demoralising for me if my gpa is gonna be damn low,however it will be.I know that..but oh well..i have to taste it all over again and reality has to hit me again so that again i will wake up. Ok no emo crap.I did slack alot.Didnt do my tutorials and blah.I know i didnt do my part well at all..so there is no such thing as praying for luck or what.I'll just get what i deserve.I did try my best during the study break..In fact i know i tried whatever i could.However it was my fault that i did it all at the last moment.The worst part was juggling the fact that my grandfather whom i was close to ,,was in the hospital fighting for his life and all.It was indeed a difficult time for me.I really thought he will pass away during my exam time.However he didnt,he held on for my grandmother who had been whispering to his ears not to leave her all alone in this world when she was there,day and night with him.And so from 19th aug,he could only hold on for 10 days. Okay i think i'll stop here about this.I dont think i can write anymore about him and the funeral.Not that hardcore when it comes to loved ones. Alrite yesterday was the official start of the holidays.Havent been doing much.I cant really do much now either.I am gonna be down with prayers.. etc till 16 days from last thursday. I so love Nicole's abs!Its freaking nice! She's got the best bod among the pussycatdolls.How i wish i could have her abs.I know you gotta work out like shit,control your diet and all.But the outcome will be totally worth it.I do wonder though,if its surgically done or something since stars are best frens with plastic surgery.lol. Then again,hard work has always the sweet results.Slimming pills,surgery etc are all for lazy people in my opinion unless the person is like 200 pounds and above and who has not much of a choice.
And oh,speaking of Nicole...a guy friend of mine just said..Which man doesnt like nicole..my oh my.haha it sounded so legendary or something. A MESSAGE TO ALL THE LADIES OUT THERE Don't stay b'cos you think "it will get better". You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't want to marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding a prince. If he doen't call, he just isn't that interested. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them…flee. Don't let him place rules on you that he's not willing to follow himself - double standard. Don't ever make him feel he is more important than you are….even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that. Never borrow someone else's man. This shows that both you and he are cheap, but you are the cheaper one. When that man is sitting with his friends, do you know the kind of things he says about you? Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you & it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him. Give up the lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable, available, someone ungiving, giving and someone unloving, loving. All men are not dogs. You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about baggage…deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…a. relationship consists of 2 WHOLE individuals….look for someone comlimentary. Dating is fun..even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right . When actions & words conflict- believe the actions. Respond to the actions. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type"…when a man loves you there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn't do for you Make him miss you sometimes…when a man always know where you are, & you are always readily available to him, he takes it for granted. Give him his space… let him go out with his boys, don't pressure him to spend time with you, you can't force a man to hang out with you If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with him, you shouldn't. You are confused and immature if you think men are there to provide money & a reason for living. Never let a man mess up your credit. When its time to let go, let go. Good men should be treated like good men. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs, personal & career goals, & socio-economic status are important. WOMEN'S COMPACT INSTRUCTION BOOK Never do housework. No man ever made love to a woman because the house was spotless. Remember you are known by the idiot you accompany. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in diapers. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out? You shut the door. So many men - so many reasons not to sleep with any of them. If they can put a man on the moon - they should be able to put them all there. Tell him you're not his type - you have a pulse. Never let your man's mind wander - its too little to be left out alone. Go for younger men. You might as well - they never mature anyway. Never marry a man for money. You'll have to earn every penny. Definition of a bachelor: A man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable. The best way to get a man to do something is to suggest he is too old for it. If he asks what sort of books you're interested in, tell him check books. A man's idea of serious commitment is usually, "Oh all right, I'll stay the night". Women sleep with men who, if they were women, they wouldn't even have bothered to have lunch with. Remember a sense of humor does not mean that you tell him jokes, it means you laugh at his. If he asks you if you if you're faking it tell him no, you're just practicing. When he asks you if he's your first tell him, "You may be, you look familiar." Ohmygod!..today is the most "boring-est" day ever . Argh! How pathetic can my holidays be going?! After thinking and thinking..there is something which just tells me not to work.The holidays is just for 6 weeks..may as well,i just enjoy it and use it fruitfully right? And 6 weeks is just like the december holidays we had in primary school which is even shorter than the secondary school holidays.The most important thing is that i have to DIE DIE burn off all those fucking fats i gained last year and this would be the best time for it.After some serious consideration,i think its not worth to work at some low-life dumb place just to earn the cash. Its not as if i am spoilt by my parents or what.I know you have to work hard to earn money and all.But if my parents are particular about the work i might be assigned to,i guess its best i dont go against them.In fact i totally know how it is to be in a suxy place to work ..as i have been through that.But it was good afterall,as it teaches you alot of things..how the people are out there in the real world etc.It also taught me that without education,you are totally gone in Singapore.People will treat you like shit.As long as they are rich,along comes with the arrogance.And being me,i definitely would not be able to stand all those nonsense.I hate people directing me..if they are gonna be rude and all.I mean directing people is alrite but however if that is being done is a rude way,i can never tolerate that. One middle aged man accused me of deliberating cheating him because i scanned the two packets of men's shirt twice.I did that because when a customer places two identical items,you are supposed to scan only one item x the amount of items he place on the counter.And for doing that,he started shouting at me asking how would i know if they are both the same..and he could even tell me that he is giving me 30 secs to run to the section of the store and find out exactly how much it is.Am i his freaking dog or what?..and so i took a stroll to the section and when i turned back,he was glaring at me and started to make a big fuss at the counter itself.He called for my manager and all.By the time i went back,he was practically shaking with anger.I went to show him that its still the same price and all,and for that he told my manager that i am very rude and all.I was getting annoyed for sure and i dont see why the hell my manager was apologising to him.Like wth?!Then came the paying part,he was practically spitting his words,which soul wouldnt have gotten pissed by this moment? I sure did and it was very much clear cut on my face and to make it worse..that stupid old man starting shouting that i dont have manners and when he paid via credit card,that fucking faggot practically threw the credit card machine at me.. Like wtf! At last,i got this blogskin done up with the help from Henna.Tomorrow will be the offical start of 'gymming'.Hope it goes well as planned.I have to make this holidays a fruitful one..and NOT spending off my days going out every single day,spending off my money like water like i used to do.I gotta change my body clock.I used to be such a morning person..awake by 8am n all and now i am like often going to sleep at like at 3 plus in the morning and practically getting up at like 11 in the next morning.Its actually so not me.Somehow i find it like having "no discipline"..sleeping at the odd hours and getting up at any time you want.Like what the hell,the morning's gone.haha. Well i am back to diaryland once again.Since its the holidays,i know i have plenty of time and that will obviously lead to boredom so setting up a blog n all could kill time.Sadly you cant change the skin directly in blogspot anymore.I spent like a few hours,setting up a blogspot account,a livejournal account,a xanga account...all to see which one is the best with the most less cons.Xanga is pretty cool though haha.Sadly i am very much used to blogspot only,but i would wanna have a nice lively blog with nice blogskins and all rather than using just a customised template.So yea,i decided to use this account of mine in diaryland once again.=)
2007-11-30 9:37 p.m.
"-"
Going to school is a total bliss now or rather damn fun,i should say.No matter how tiring it can be,i realised sem 2 is really way more fun than sem 1.,not forgetting the fact,the people i hang out with are fucking funny!I think we can laugh ourselves silly to get abs peeps! haha.I so cant wait for the term break to come! I so badly need to catch up on my sleep,exercise,and rebond my hair again,,like finally la! LOL.
I hope i can get through my accounts this tuesday.May god bless me la haha.
2007-11-16 9:26 p.m.
"how silly!"
2007-11-15 1:04 a.m.
"lala"
You will see people you least wanna see when you are with someone whom you don't wanna be seen with.
Be it whoever you're with at that point of time.Haha.
Oh well,i am going off track again.Damn,the projects and all are back again.Haiyo.I am lacking of sleep.
Oky,im off.
2007-11-07 8:49 p.m.
"Blahhh"
Now coming to hair issues,i so want to do something about it.It feels very long since i did something to my hair and its like boring now.I like Henna's hair..its long and its looks so natural and it suits her very well,I doubt i can have such long hair haha.I am just stuck as to whether i should just go rebond and look neat and sophisticated or stick to my own curly wriggy hair.Hmmmm..............i have never curled my hair before and i just leave it as how it is..i also want to have manageable hair! aiyo hahah
I hope next week ends fast.I want to clear my access project!Or rather i want the two-weeks break to come fast! haha okay i am off to go wash toilet! ciaoz
2007-11-03 11:42 p.m.
"Nothing else better to do,, Part 2"
day?
~ This answer can be real deep or be just off the surface,,next
2. Do you think the legal drinking age
should be reduced to 18 years?
~Isnt it at 18?
draft back?
~Huh?
where do you spend most of your time?
~Out? either gym,void deck,Carpark,Hill park,Shopping malls,fren's place.
~I dont know and never knew that they were either.
different if the South had won the
Civil War?
~I was a history student but noo i have no comments about it.
your family every night?
~Nope.
~NO
are having sex by the age of 12?
~I hope i had the power to end the world.Full stop.
you've ever had to ask your parents?
~Like nothing,we are open.
to tell?
~No,not to me..No matter how fucked up the truth is ,i rather face it.
~Thinspo? sounds aneroxic,i rather demolish the word haha.
in the winter?
~I hate fishes.
model?
~Strictly none.NOT a single soul.
inspiration?
~From stuffs around me
for you?
~I forgot what i wished for also hahaha.
< BR>17 . What's your favorite scented
candle? I rarely burn candles.
~Burn la..you are dead already,why bury and all,and waste land space especially when you are in Singapore?
adult?
~ When you start thinking about life in a deeper way and when you become responsible enough to handle everything that comes your way ?
~I dont mind going to Spain for a hoilday.Yup
toenail?Nah i doubt so
~Ahhh tough question haha.
you leave the room?
~Yes always.
song?
~Nope.
25. Why do geese travel in a V
formation?
~ Wth?
26. How's your life lately?
. Packed.I need my time to reflect.
went out?
. In the afternoon,Feroz's birthday.
. Laaga chunari mein daag.
. Jalan Bukit Ho Swee seh.The gangster paradise,LOL.
. NO
. Feeding chocolate cake to a cat.
.Hmmm..
...........
. BUSY hahaha.. or is it away?
. I have dreamless nights.
at 7 am?
. Sleeping
10 am?
. Walking around the house,planning to do what at what time.
. Eygpt
. Almost did :D Vic!! you got it without meee!!
. White chocolate cookies and hot fudge sundae.
. Chocolate milk
. Feroz
. so many
. Eat,sleep,shit
gets hurt
. Nope.I am a great wall of puvanes haha.
your girlfrends?
. Stop behaving like a retard.
.7
today?
.Hmm nah.
mind?
. When will i start finding somethings which are meaningful in life?
regret?
. none
. yes
you grow up?
. Private la.
. Yeap.like duh
stabbed you in the back?
. Yeap can say la.
girls or boys?
. boys.
. I only became active after 2005.
. Not really.
45.Do you know anyone who has gotten
an abortion?
yes.
i cant remember.
on currently?
Next.
down a set of stairs?
YES HAHA.
starved the whole time?
nopes.Most to most i go buy food myself lar.
random place?
yes.. haahaa.
smokes cigarettes?
There are soooo many.
about you:
1. I am very practical.2.I have no patience.3.I am nice to some people only or rather i am nice at times only.
life, do you go after them or let
them go?
Dont bother.Too many other things in life.
your workplace?
YEA.
important to you than a family
member?
NO.
What kinda question is this? lol.
Genuinely smiled,i cant remember.
telemarketer calls?
Hmm talk and find out what is it exactly about?
alcohol?
Of course.
washing your hair to save a loved
one?
What on earth has my hair got to do with saving someone? haha
59 . Have you had the best night of
your life?
Hmmm..might have or might have yet to have haha
will be alive ten years from now?
Hope they would be,that would be nice.
Long long back
Dennis?
Nope.
In the hall.
past week?
Go to school,Hang out,Sleep,eat,Talk cock with bro.
Hmm .......i think last year? cant remember leh.
67 . What color phone do you have?
Orange.
I am not married.
this exact moment?
T-shirt and shorts.
Dark dark brown.
Nah..i doubt so..if your talking about the real love love,,kathal kathirika hahaha.
a martini?
Never la
Not really,nth much actually.
Packed again,haiyo.
you?
Yeap of course.
Fred, Frank, or Felipe?
Nope.
it sounds?
Heartbreak in what way exactly?
Reddish or copperish
still look good?
No ex? how hahaha
not meant it?
Next,
girlfriend?
Nope..but i got les partners.haha
to you?
Bed sheet.
83. Have you ever been teased really
bad?
Never.Or at least not in front of me.
anyone from your past?
HMMMM....
OF COURSE!
past 48 hours?
Yeap
2007-11-03 10:48 p.m.
"Nothing else better to do ..Part 1"
~I have yet to figure this out in exact terms.
~Losing myself.
alone?
~About everything? Like every single thing.
~YES .It does like big time.
innocence?
What innocence are we talking about?
have?
~Being unfaithful to your own words.Judging people anyhow.
~Yes of coz..its just that i never show it out.
~I am a private person.So what u think? haha
to save their life?
~Depends on who exactly.Not many are worth it..Especially when we are talking about my life in return!
the world?
~Tear would be the word.Especially when you see the pictures and videos of it.
thing from the past what would it
be?
~Nothing lar.I learnt new lessons in life.
else happy?
~Yeah of course.If your friend asks you he or she is good looking,,Do you go..'erm nah you cant make it la'? Of course not right haha.
would it be?
~Cancer.
~My implusive-ness.
self?
~I always on guard to fight? hahaha
~Depends on few things.
~Its going fine,very fine compared to many out there.
what would it be?
~I seriously have no idea about this.
nightmares hold the truth?
~This goes way back.,but i really dont know.Everything was coming true except till the last moment haha.
~I am not yet an old woman to decide this.
are just as good as chemical?
~I have no idea.
~Its a temporary relief.
~Only God and nth else.
~When......When.............When.......
2007-11-01 8:47 p.m.
"Flames"
I would be seeing everyone again on Saturday for Feroz's birthday gathering.Its definitely gonna be fun and i am actually supposed to be painting my room this saturday haha.
My hands are just too itchy to blog about this dumbass girl i know of .She's just a random acquaintance though ,who thinks she is some bollywood queen but who looks like .... in person with retarded teeth and retarded laugher.Goodness you can never judge a book by its cover man.She carries so much of air online,in blogs etc but in person she is just mere piece of shit.LOL life is so full of surprises haha.Its a sad thing that she is actually advertising how pathetic she can be or rather her family members be.Well retribution is always there for everyone,including people who blog terribly about their own friends who they seemed close and all.Goodness,some people just have to look in the mirror before they open their mouth or rather recall how they were in the past before they start calling people names.The "even more happening people" would be the ones who know such people,talk about them and yet suck up to them..as in be nice to them and all and go all way to become good friends and all.Pathetic,i reckon or rather mere cowards who cant keep up to their words.Aiyo i think i know too many two-faced people..Lucky thing i am not close to such sickos =)
Okay heck assholes.
OMG
I still cant get over the fact that HE called last night,though i didnt really entertain him because i was dead tired Haha and it actually woke me up wondering or rather recalling alot of things.Oh well,as i said life is too full of surprises.You can never who might pop in or rather POP BACK into your life.LOL
I have found some "extras" who continously keep track of me.Sadly NONE of my close friends blog nor do they really read people's blogs and so on and here i have kepos who are just waiting to bang me on my posts.LOL so fucking funny.I didnt know i was so wanted or rather WE were so wanted haha.Never do the mistake of assuming that you know me in and out just by reading my blog can? I only blog about pretty much random stuff,other than that i am a private person who trusts only very few souls.In fact your pants might drop if you really found out who i am.Dont do the mistake of crossing your limits =) I am a woman of my word, and would never hesitate to smack you right at your face in front of people in public functions plus its not as if i have never done that to you before.You know it very well or rather you know how exactly my temper is and how it actually lead to many fights i was involved in during those days.Yet you wanna start your cock stuff again.lolAnyway this is just a small message to you..I know you would be reading this so dont cross the limits AGAIN okay
Cheers =)
Omg hahah i realise i can really post long long entries.hehe yeahh! the week is coming to an end,i cant wait for the weekends! ciaos! If your happy and you know it,clap your hands *clap clap*
OK,,i am getting lame here..ciaoz
2007-10-28 12:56 a.m.
"The season"
! It was really an emotional event for alot of people.But as usual for every firewalking ceremony there are many many police cars,ambulances outside for standby.So they were rescued in time.However they were people who actually passed away.My dad isnt going down the firepit this year,though he was been going since he was 18.But nonetheless hope everything goes alrite this year for all those who are going down the firepit.It never rains on firewalking and even if it does,,it never rains in the temple! but everywhere surronding the temple would be raining.LOL.And festive season is here,though i wont be celebrating this year.At last a break from the 5 full batches of open house,we have every year,mainly because of the size of my family and friends.No hardcore overnight cookings,no hardcore cleaning,no hardcore unnecessary EXPENSES.No hardcore weight gain,no hardcore drinks,,free flow of alcholic drinks.No hardcore lack of sleep.No hardcore free flow of cash.I wanna have a feel of being free on deepavali/diwali since i never had that!
2007-10-25 9:12 p.m.
"People."
Ok enough of that anyway those who know me really well,,as in really really very well..should actually know how much i think every moment in my life.LOL,maybe i should just give my brain cells some rest.Anyway speaking of the exterior and interior sides of people reminds me of people can be..maybe personality wise..you never know what lies beyond those eyes.People can look or behave in a very loud manner that may portray that they are immatured,annoying and all but they may turn out to be really really emotional,sad,miserable person on the inside.However once again i would say not all loud people are such.Back to the emo peeps, most of the times being loud,outstanding and all helps them recover or rather hide their internal feelings or the emotions they are going through.In short,having a mask to cover the real you or sometimes it also reflects on your self-esteem.For instance ,people who have low self-esteem tend to cricitise almost every single soul they see or even judging the person from head to toe.All these just to make themselves feel better.Kinda hilarious in some way,but trust me i have seen so many and its sad that they dont realise what they are portraying or how they seem to others who are around them.At the end of the day,bothering so much or even bothering alil about people whom are of no concern isnt gonna get you anything.However i wont say,'heck everything on earth and only bother about yourself or the people you love',i would rather phrase it that you should learn things from everyone.You never stop learning in life.For instance,People can look or be really quiet,demure and all(for the gals) but oh my ,,i bet you if you ever had the a special power of reading people's minds,you might practically get a shock out of your wits.Yea,people who look innocent and all..maybe turn out to be the worst nightmare and those who seem like they might anytime break your face kind might turn out to be one of the best gems on earth.You can never know what to expect.People are definitely not what they seem to be and its really interesting if you were to ask me,,life is full of surprises aint it?LoL.And many many people are yet to figure themselves out.Sadly i havent found anyone who have really figured themselves out or maybe i have but its just that i am not close enough to realise that which means back to square one.I havent met anyone is really strong.
2007-10-17 10:10 p.m.
"Random"
Anyway,chariot is coming soon to my place wee! and soon it will be firewalking,and soon it will be Diwali.Holy month ey,i am thinking of becoming vegetarian on tuesdays and fridays.Not exactly for religious purposes though,btw dont get that silly idea that i dont pray or go to temples etc.I just dont talk about my religious issues basically,i am very much a private person in many ways.I am a very proud hindu=),,and HINUDISM is the oldest religion in the world ,therefore i respect it most and whatever religion which originated from India which includes Sikhism.Okay i am not gonna go blah blah blah before people mis-interpret me.Omg,,Time flies so fast.Wah.I better go do my accounts!
2007-10-16 9:13 p.m.
"Double S"
I dont really get the time to run nowadays..but i made a vow to squeeze in as much time as i can for running.I really hope the soccer thingy would go out all fine too! =)
Its been after so long since i was in a group.hehe.Okay im off now.
2007-10-13 11:56 p.m.
"Stressed."
I have to! School reopens on monday!.
Though i might be going shopping with henna after school,i doubt i will be able to get loads of clothes =( due to me overspending! argh!.haha.So sad lar.
Heck i guess i gotta get them slowly ,anyway anyone wanna recommend me a part-time weekend job? I would definitely wanna look through the offers i get.Hehe.
2007-10-09 11:54 p.m.
"BhangraMan!"
2007-10-08 10:43 p.m.
"Back to School"
Anyways,i have got my long awaited timetable.Well i cant believe i am going back to school next week,its both good and bad.Good thing is that i wont be exactly rotting or wasting my life away,i will be occupied,i will get to see my bunch of frens in school,the ppl i hang out with,henna,andy and shikin.Bad thing is the travelling or rather getting up early in the morning since NYP is far from my place and erm seeing stupid ppl again,basically those whom i was pissed off by?.haha
Oh well,time sure flies fast.
2007-10-07 11:05 p.m.
"BORED"
of right
off the top of your head. Don't read
the questions underneath until you
write the names of all 11 people. This
is a lot funnier if you actually
randomly list the names first.. No
cheatin.
1.Sham
2. Vicky(apple)
3. Shazzy
4. Siti
5. Jerome
6. Jassy Kaur
7. Sabby
8. Sunny
9. Rikinder
10. Ahems D
11. Denisha
D O N'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP
THE TOP!!
Siti-Hamza Tuition :P
GOING OUT?
Sham and Jassy Kaur-Both are FUN and erm retarded!I
Sunny-19 this year,01/01/88
LOVE YOU ?
Jerome-AHHH? ya okay happening "siblings"Just dont drown yourself in NP!
Ahem D-I wish i know now!!! argh! haha
Sham-OF COZ,we always pig out together.Go glutton-ism haha
Jerome-Yes! Miss those crappy stuffs we used to do
Denisha-Karthik
Shazzy-My hardcore bitching partner :D
Rikinder-Nice good friend,really frank and genuine =)
DATING?
Siti&Sabby-Both are gals :|
Vicky(apple)-HER>Confidential
Sunny-I have not thought about that lol.
Sabby-Ya,,my honeybun backside hahaha! FUCKING miss ur FUCKING crap lol!
2007-10-07 10:02 p.m.
"LOL."
wait.
person!
from below to up ! :D
2007-10-06 6:13 p.m.
"Sunny Saturday."
I realise i have been kinda hyper since yesterday.I have been spending again,lol.I guess i have started it all again.Been out with shamsy and shazzy.So many crazy memories lol.Jeromeee got a blog! hahaha and apparently he is keeping it a secret while i am advertising it here lol.:P
I havent been getting enough sleep,aiyoyo.And i think i have hit a plateau,but whatever lol.I guess i'll give my body a rest and start running after school opens.Talking about running reminds me of the fields and the fields reminds me of WEST WARRIORS!
The soccer group which was made up by my group of friends back in 2004,at first it was quite a small group with about 13-15 members excluding us gals,who were in charge of first aid,administrative issues etc.And within a short span of time,we grew in number till we even had the under 12-catergory players.And soon,practically so many from telok blangah started joining our team,West Warriors.lol,even having a coach and with rules n regulations..every meetings were really damn fun and of coz never proper.Talk about celebrating every group member's birthdays or celebrating after any matches we won etc.We had to celebrate so many times per month till we had to reduce celebrating birthdays to a once a month affair.However our group outings remained.We practically had a mini government under us at the age of 15 lol.Anyway too much of fun didnt do much for us either.We were having 'wonderful' grades and i had my form teacher calling my mum often hehe.But that was another issue,lol.
But sooner or later,our families also got involved in this team lol!Since we all knew each other and even our parents were friends with each other,we just got bigger and bigger.The best part now is that i am actually wearing SM t-shirt lol,that was another group.Ok i think i am going off track and well back to present stuffs,I am dead tired.And sadly the most irritating part is that i cant seem to lose weight!!haiyooo And i getting darker,siao,i dont know why also,Smack me ah,i think i go play under the sun too much.arse me haha.Ok i am off to shopping now!!!! happy happy! weee lol,i'll be back to update about henna issues.
2007-10-04 9:37 p.m.
"Realisation"
To phir aaoooo
Mujhko satao
To phir aaoooo
Mujhko rulaao
Aankhen bhene lagee
Aaheein aise uthe
Jaise aandhi chalee
Mujhko satao
To phir aaoooo
Mujhko rulaao
ho hoho
Jo bhi tune diye
Ya phir mujhko batao
inko kaise sahee
Mujhko satao
To phir aaoooo
Mujhko rulaao
mujhko chale jana hai
Jin raaahon.. pe mera yaar hai
Un raahon ko mujhe pana hai
To phir aaoooo
Mujhko satao
Mujhko rulaao
One of my favourite songs,Toh Phir Aao with its beautiful lyrics and its beautiful meaning.
2007-10-04 3:44 a.m.
"PISSED"
Its quite pathetic that i dont have fun anymore like how i used to have.Loads of fun in fact.I wonder if its my poly life that made all these changes.Maybe i seriously gotta blame it on the course,yea the course where you only get to meet goody-goody people,who are basically no fun people.HEH.Sickening, to be something you are not.I miss those mischief me and my friends were always up to and NO,it isnt those playing around with silly guys or guys who are real fuckards,thank you.I miss being hardcore.I miss being the old me.I miss my old lifestyle.I think i hate being around with vainpots who are actually nothing but just a piece of shit,in fact maybe without realising i have become one myself.FUCK!eh no! i aint a piece of shit,
.I hate being around people who think they know it all,who think they are the best,the most wow and blah blah.Very irritating.Ok i know i just changed the layout to a white nice elegant kinda layout,but i guess i am just blogging what i am feeling now at 4.05am.So just FUCK THE FUCK OFF!
2007-09-26 1:06 p.m.
"I miss nyp =("
19 days more.
2007-09-21 4:59 p.m.
"Indulge yourself in Body wellness."
I tried taking the easy way out,swimming because you can enjoy paddling in the water and yet lose calories.However it only gave me manly lower arms and the chlorine in the water made my hair more worse.Swimming is good though but i realised i cant totally depend on it to lose weight.
I think i'll save the diet part on the next entry,because its getting long plus i am going off to the gym soon! weee
2007-09-16 10:55 p.m.
"Freelance Henna."
She posted our pics and forms for the freelance henna we just started.Well since we have been practising hard and all,vandalising our own body with different designs overlapping each other and all,I have got a good feeling about this and not to forget the overwhelming response we got.I didnt expect it either!=)
I doubt any soul reads my blog since i told about this to like 3 people?and i didnt exactly start linking anyone up or having a tagboard etc haha.
However many people read Henna's blog which will be a plus point for us.Hehe.
We will be setting up our website and our very own friendster site soon too!.
Do contact me and henna for further details,currently we are having a special promotion now for this festive season!We do contemporary,arabic,traditional indian and bridal henna art/designs for any event.
Henna ansar:piper_halliwell5@hotmail.com
ps:i cant do much in this blog coz i am not really good at this! So it may be or rather it is quite boring in here.lol but bear with it alrite.hehe.
2007-09-15 12:38 p.m.
"Oxford Dictionary's Latest Definitions."
Cigarette : A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire atone end & a fool on the other.
Lecture : An art of transferring information from the notes of the Lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the minds of either
Conference : The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present.
Compromise : The art of dividing a cake in such a way that everybody believes he got the biggest piece. Tears : The hydraulic force by which masculine will-poweris defeated by feminine water power.
Dictionary : A place where success comes before work.
Conference Room : A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on.
Classic : A book which people praise, but do not read.
Smile :A curve that can set a lot of things straight.
Office : A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life.
Yawn : The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.
Etc. : A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do.
Committee : Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together. Experience : The name men give to their mistakes.
Atom Bomb : An invention to end all inventions.
Philosopher : A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead.
Diplomat : A person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip. Opportunist : A person who starts taking bath if he accident all falls into a river.
Optimist : A person who while falling from Eiffel tower says in midway "See I am not injured yet."
Miser : A person who lives poor so that he can die rich.
Father : A banker provided by nature. Criminal : A guy no different from the rest . . . . except that he got caught.
Boss : Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early.
Politician : One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after.
Doctor : A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills.
2007-09-10 10:49 p.m.
"Issues."
Haiyo.
The word 'family,loved ones' and the word 'love' has a great depth...Way deeper than i have imagined and learnt alot more.Having values is very important,extremely important.
Anyway,all the best to all i know who's getting their results on friday.
Results come from hard work not luck.
2007-09-03 9:44 p.m.
"Hmm.."
2007-08-31 9:41 p.m.
"Being Practical ;)"
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour. Allow your intuition ( or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Don't force an attraction
If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship, take that as a BIG sign that he's unstable. Do y ou really want to be with a man like that?
If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he tre ats the WOMEN in his family (not just his mum).
You cannot change a man's behaviours. Change comes from within.
Don't compete with other women, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.
Never even choose someone else's man. Even if you get him in the end, he probably only gave in b'cos you showed him you were easy enough.
If a man cheats with you, he'll cheat on you.
A real healthy relationship requires 2 people. 1 person can end it - but it takes 2 to make it work.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
Have your own money. Have your own friends. Have your own life.
2007-08-31 9:11 p.m.
"Women's instruction Book"
2007-08-28 11:03 p.m.
"Freakin bored"
2007-08-28 12:59 a.m.
"Work?"
This just reminds me of an incident in the place i was working.
That was the point,when i totally felt the anger rise up in me..and i realised two of my colleagues hold me back physically,i got so mad that i swear i would practically re-arranged his face right down there and i had tears in my eyes already.I really wanted to fight and spit all the words i could and was even prepared to lose the job right there straight away.My manager and some of my colleagues managed to calm that stupid bastard and calm me down also.After that most of my colleagues and my manager were really nice to me saying he is just a crazy old man who might have fought with his wife and all.But what the heck,i was a 16 year old gal and he,a freaking middle-aged man wanting to pick a fight at me..is totally @#$%^&*.
That was what i experienced on the second day of my new job straight away after my o'levels in 2005.
I came to realise that all this is part and parcel of the sales line.And so much for that,you gotta have a hell lot of patience for all these rubbish.
I have had many experiences working twice in R.I just wonder how much experiences people like my aunty who has been there for like 28 years,would have gone through..*shudders at that thought*
2007-08-27 12:54 a.m.
"Stupid sluts"
What do you call a girl who changes boyfriends like she changes her..erm..whatever i cant seem to find the right word.I just think its so fucking pathetic that you got to depend on guys to survive.I got kinda worked up when i happened to stumble onto some profile which i wouldnt bother going into.I think girls like you just tarnish the reputation of yourselves..not to forget your own self-respect.Why dont you walk down the streets hanging a sign saying 'hey im easy,come and fuck me..i am open 24/7' !
I get freaking annoyed when i see people who have no values and trust me ,,i think during my secondary school..i think i have seen enough.I dont understand why you have to be so cheap 'layanging' to some lame ass out there.Its just fucking pathetic.Girls like you are such horrible whores and simply a disgrace for the womanhood.
Being beautiful aint gonna get you high unless you are pure from within."A whore is like a clean door to a dirty house".
Its just a sad case that many little girls are turning into such stupid sluts out there.Like hello?..can you stand on your own feets..and perharps..control your lust if it grows excessively from within.
2007-08-26 11:47 p.m.
"Random."
2007-08-25 12:03 p.m.
"On a saturday morning."